There is nothing wrong with you.
I am not sure who needs to hear this, but I feel the need to share: there is nothing wrong with you. You are perfect in all your imperfections. You are and always will be a work in progress, and that is beautiful and worth remembering.
The world around you may try to tell you that you are wrong. Hell, maybe I am saying the same thing right now by telling you that you are perfect in your imperfections. But I do believe it. We are here to feel and experience. How can we feel and experience if we don’t experiment? How can you be wrong when wrong is subjective? Yes, we can all agree that killing is wrong, yet somehow we can justify the killing of someone (war, self-defense, protecting someone you love). Again, what is wrong is subjective.
We live in a world filled with contradictions. Growing up, having a big butt was not in fashion. My sister even said I would have the perfect body if not for my bum (good thing I love my big butt and I cannot lie). Now, having a big bum is desirable. Some people look at themselves and what the universe has gifted them and think it’s not right. Again, you are perfect.
Then there’s the inside of us: the way we think, the way we talk, the way we interact or don’t interact with others. These things are judged as right or wrong. Why must we all conform to a type that doesn’t even make most people happy? Why should I be more outgoing and make others feel welcome when they don’t even want to be out with me? We get ourselves into situations because we think it’s the right thing to do when it makes no one in the situation happy.
Have you ever been invited to a party you didn’t want to go to but went because it was the right thing to do? Have you ever felt the need to invite someone to your party because it was the thing to do? So now you’re at a party you didn’t want to go to with a person who didn’t want you there! Please, make that make sense.
Neurodivergent… I love this word. I feel most people are somewhere on the spectrum (we now have the space to be acknowledged), but those embracing that part of themselves—I am in love with. Especially those who can’t help but speak their truth. Sometimes it might hurt, but I love it because I know where I stand with such a person. I love that our differences are more visible and embraced now.
This is mainly for the people who pass as neurotypical, who can function well in this world yet feel that they don’t belong. For those who are tired of pretending to fit in because they can but don’t want to anymore, and so they feel there is something wrong with them. For those who are neurotypical but don’t understand the world we live in. Having done everything by the book and yet still come out feeling lack.
Again, there is nothing wrong with you.
You are a perfect piece of the puzzle. Your existence is so needed. You are worthy and worth it. You are purposeful, so you don’t need to search for a purpose. You are the main character yet a tiny part of the story. You are everything and you are nothing. With all these, how can you think you are wrong for being you? Without you, the world would not be the same, even if you were just here for a short time or a good time. I love the fact that I get to share this world with all of you. You can make me laugh and make me cry, sometimes both at the same time, feeling both pain and happiness. Wow.
Thank you. Xxxx
Love B. xxxx